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Name: Dmitri
Age: 33
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Name: Castiel
Door: door pass

Canon: Supernatural
Canon Point: Season 5, Episode 4: The End

Age: Physical: mid-Thirties, Mental: Several Billion
Appearance: Castiel occupies a white, male vessel who appears to be in his mid-thirties (Formerly one Jimmy Novak), with short, dark brown hair, blue eyes, and a lithe build. He's of average height. Unkempt and unshaven, this version of Castiel has given up his suit and coat for more casual wear. When relaxing, he chooses woven sandals and looser, more comfortable clothes. When on the move, they're traded out for combat boots and jeans, complimented by military jackets in much the same style that Dean and Sam wear. He also wears jewelry, mostly beaded, on his wrists.

History: Wikia Link

This is a canon AU version of Castiel.

This version of Castiel shares the same history up until 2009, the year when the Biblical apocalypse is meant to occur. In this timeline of events, Sam Winchester says yes to Lucifer, and allows him to possess his body. However, as Dean doesn't allow Michael to possess him, this causes a stalemate between Heaven and Hell. The Croatoan virus spreads via Hell's machinations, turning the infected into mindless, ravenous beasts. Society breaks down as a result, and eventually, the angels give up the Earth as a lost cause.

Castiel, however, stays with Dean, while Dean hunts his brother, determined to kill the Devil at all costs.

When we meet this Castiel, it's 2014, five years in the future. He's since lost his powers, and now is a broken shell of a man, who regularly imbibes in drink, drugs, and sex in order to ease the pain of his current existence. In the end, he goes to his death when Dean orders him and a group of his men to act as decoys.

CR AU (Optional): n/a

Personality:

Positive Trait: Loyalty. By the time the apocalypse has sunk its teeth in, Dean is the only thing left that matters to Castiel. Dean taught him what it means to be human, for better or worse. And so, despite his miserable existence and the horrifying state of their world, he continues to fight at Dean's side. He's willing to see their mission through to its logical conclusion, despite believing that the world is doomed ("Why not bang a few gongs before the lights go out?"). Rather than give up completely, rather than run, he turns to... a number of questionable coping mechanisms in order to get through the day, in a sense making the most of the situation he's found himself in.

Most importantly, Castiel could have left while he still had his powers. He tells Present-Day Dean that when the angels returned to Heaven, all of his Heavenly abilities went with them, and it's something he appears to be quite regretful of ("I used to belong to a much better club"). We're not told when the angels abandoned Earth, but it could have been at any point during in past five years. which means Castiel had plenty of time to decide to leave Dean to his doomed cause— With his ability to teleport, he could have gone almost anywhere to weather out the apocalypse, on Earth or off, including Heaven. But he refuses to belly up, and remains with Dean to the end.

In the original version of the script for this episode, Castiel is much more forthcoming about why this is— "But instead, we become this. The only thing I think we have left, Dean and me, is each other. (unadorned sincerity) If Dean says it’s time to go out in a blaze of glory, win or lose, so be it. I’m in."

Negative Trait: Self-Hatred. Castiel's low self-esteem is the bedrock all of his other bad traits are built on, past and present. He doesn't like what he's become. He openly calls himself "hapless" and "hopeless" when speaking to the current universe Dean. Likewise, his actions speak for themselves. He makes no attempts to take care of himself, appears to have no major relationships outside of Dean, and exudes an air of disinterest in life outside of his vices. To further compound the problem, his low self-esteem was present long before the timeline split, as the original Castiel also displays evidence of the same self-image issues after rebelling, calling himself a "poor excuse for an angel" later in the same season, and further going on to be known as "The Self-Hating Angel Of Thursday". Castiel generally operates on a need to be useful in order to justify his own existence. This can be seen again and again throughout the series, in almost every major action Cas takes, from his attempts to reform Heaven in Season 6, to his decision to abandon a normal human life to help the angels in Season 9, to his choice to hunt down Kelly Kline and her unborn nephilm son in Season 12.

But the circumstances of this Castiel's life have prevented him from being useful in the ways he finds acceptable.

Moreover, Castiel has always cared about being a model angel, or at least his own idea of what a model angel should be. Even after he rebels, this idea remains important to him. In Season 6, the season immediately after this, God grants the original Castiel an upgraded version of his powers, and Castiel returns to Heaven with renewed purpose to heal the corruption endemic to his home. But this version of Castiel has given up all his illusions after the losses he's endured. He no longer has any faith in himself to be what he aspired to be. What pride he once had has been crushed under the weight of reality, and so he chooses to cope in whatever way he can with no regard to the consequences to himself or his life.

The final nail in the coffin is in his denouement. Even when Dean sends him on what's obviously a suicide mission, he hardly puts up more than a passing fight. Instead, he marches into battle well aware that he's likely to die, and probably does.

Negative Trait: Defeatism. Castiel has given up on himself. He's given up on the world. In fact, he's quite bitter about his situation. He doesn't believe that there's any hope for humanity, even if Dean's plan to kill Lucifer succeeds, and he openly disparages his abilities despite his own perseverance in the face of impossible odds.

Worse still, his idealism has clearly been irreparably damaged. He uses people (putting on a fake 'guru'-like persona for the orgy he's arranging when original timeline Dean meets him), he abuses substances (even though they would be much better put to medical use, given their limited supplies), he states outright that he believes he's hopeless even as he drives to the site of a major battle. When Dean asks what happened to him, Castiel's answer is simply, "Life."

It's a feature that the original Castiel also displays, so it's easy to see how this trait is not learned but inborn— The original Castiel gives up on Dean, when it appears that Dean is going to give in to Heaven's demands. Castiel then even gives up on the world— Suggesting that they all imbibe copious amounts of alcohol when it looks like there's nothing they can do to stop the apocalypse. The difference is Sam and Dean's influence on him. The present-day versions of Sam and Dean continue to fight for the world no matter the circumstances, and Castiel follows by example.

But Dean in this universe has become a different person. The greater good no longer matters to him. Cold, calculating, and harsh, he uses and throws people away, discarding everything and everyone except his quest for revenge— he even discards Castiel himself. And so, Castiel follows suit. Except he has nothing to exact revenge on. He only has himself to blame for his situation, and only has himself to punish.

Negative Trait: Hedonism. While on it's own somewhat less destructive than Castiel's other negative traits, they all feed into his mindless self-indulgence. Arranging orgies, drinking, drugs. Aiming to be under the influence as much as possible (Dean: What, are you stoned? Castiel: Uh, generally, yeah.). It seems he's fallen into every major vice a person can, and he does so shamelessly, with no care to his well-being or the opinions of others. It's easy to imagine how this kind of behavior could escalate to self-harm, and one could even argue that it has, though it's difficult to judge when the world is ending.

Powers and Abilities:

- Angelic Powers: After Heaven shut its doors, most of Castiel's powers faded, but he's still able to tell that the present timeline Dean is out of place at a glance, so it seems he still has a sliver of Grace— his angelic batteries. Fallen angels throughout the series also generally seem to be able to receive signals from Angel Radio, the angels' telepathic communication network, though they can't receive prayers from humans any longer.

- Magic: He's somewhat proficient in human magic, and can cast basic to mid-tier spells (with the proper ingredients) and set wards.

- Physical Abilities: Castiel is highly skilled in hand-to-hand combat (particularly with bladed weapons, like knives), and he's become proficient with firearms since living as a human.

- Mental Prowess: Castiel is decently intellectual, and a decent strategist, having formerly commanded a garrison of angels. He's been alive at least since the dawn of man, though the majority of his experiences with human history are limited to Biblical events. His biggest weakness in this area is technology— particularly computer technology.

Inventory: His Heckler & Koch MP5A3 submachine gun, his angel blade, and a bottle of amphetamines.

Samples: (both of these are nsfw or soon to be nsfw)
SAMPLE 1: PART 1 / PART 2
SAMPLE 2: HERE